5-16-2013 One of the best days of my life...

I woke up in no pain. I started to get ready for work was stopped in my tracks a few times by what I can only describe as minor gas pains. My uterus was tight. As I've never had a baby before, never been Iabor, I had no idea if that's what I was feeling. Since it only happened twice while I was getting ready, I decided to go into work. We had 8th grade awards that night so I wore my dress and even dress shoes.

When I got to work I noticed the pain was happening more frequently. By the middle of 2nd period I decided to start keeping track. I thought I was doing a great job of hiding it, but one of my more observant students asked me if I was ok. I assured her I was.

During my conference, I went to my friend, Vonda's classroom. Vonda and I teach the same subjects except I also have speech and athletics. We spend a lot of time together. I told her what was going on and she said maybe it was Nate dropping. I was still carrying him really high. I thought that made total sense.

We ate lunch at 11:30 and that is when the "timer" started. Every time I got up I was having a "contraction" Counted 6 in an hour. Vonda said to me, "Maybe you are in labor". So I texted Kevin and he told me to call our Dr and see what they think.

I called and very unsurely told her I thought I was having contractions. That they were accompanied with minor pain and I had 6 in the last hour. She said it sounded like labor and to go to the hospital to get checked out. Kevin and I knew how many days of "paid vacation" I had left and its not a lot. So I asked her if I could wait until 3pm. She said no. ;)

So I went to my principal and told her what was going on. She asked if I needed a ride. I said I did. Vonda had my advisory class and agreed to watch my 5th period and my principal got my 6th and 7th periods covered.

Had a student run to my classroom to get my purse. I left my other bag because I was convinced this was all precautionary and I'd be back for awards that night. I called Kevin. He didn't answer. Left him a message that I was headed to the hospital.

Ok, so Kev had been on edge the past week. We don't normally talk on the phone during the day so anytime I called him he'd always answer in a panic. On the Tuesday before, with the suggestion of one of my students we came up with a code word. My student suggested "peaches". We thought that was hilarious.

So if I texted him peaches... It was go time.

So since my phone call went unanswered, I texted him... "Headed to the hospital, peaches."

Still nothing.

By this point I was in the car headed to the hospital. So I decided to text his two best friends at school hoping he was with one of them. Completely forgetting that Linden's wife, Julianne, had just given birth to their angel, Brooks, the day before.

Well, it's a good thing I did, because Linden called Brian, who was with Kevin. Brian hadn't seen the text yet but felt his phone ringing and answered. Turned out they were in the school cafeteria for an event and it was really loud. Brian told Kevin to check his phone and Kev was out the door calling me as he ran to his truck. Can't even say how much I appreciate Kevin's great friends!!

So I got to the hospital at 12:30pm. My principal waited in the waiting room until Kevin got there. I filled out some paper work. They walked me to the triage bed and then to the bathroom. I left a urine sample. Changed into the hospital gown and heard Kevin's voice on the other side of the door. A calm set over me. Thank God for him.

I got into the bed and they hooked me up to the machines. I had one small contraction right away and it didn't even hurt. Not a good sign. They checked and I wasn't dialated at all. Not even 1 centimeter. My blood pressure was good. My feet were swollen, but that's normal. They said they would monitor me for about an hour and if nothing changed that they'd send me home.

I looked at Kev and said, "You haven't called anyone, have you? Because I'm here for gas pains and that's embarrassing." He said he hadn't and we both had a little giggle.

10 minutes later the machine took my blood pressure again and it shot up 20 points. I have not had a problem with my blood pressure the whole pregnancy. There was 1 day where it was elevated. But it went back down within 5 minutes of resting on one side. Because of this one time, I was wary of pre-eclampsia. I've had traces of protein in my urine through out my pregnancy and would see spots every now and then. But the major indicators, blood pressure and head aches, had not been a problem.

10 minutes later and it shot up another 20 points. 183 over 84.

10 minutes later... 203 over 100.

It was about this time that the nurse came in and checked my legs. She said you are probably not going home today with blood pressure that high.

Minutes later she came back in. Said that I have protein in my urine, extremely swollen legs and asked me if I was seeing spots, I was. She said, "Ok, I talked to Dr. Froeschke and he said we are going to admit you and do a C-section. You are going to have a baby today."

Huh?

Kev looked at me and said, " Can I call your parents now?"

Yes please.

It was 1:45pm and everything started happening very quickly. They wheeled me to the elevator and Kevin had to stop and check in with security. I asked if we could wait and the nurse politely told me no. Told Kev what room we were headed to and to meet us there.

There were 5 nurses waiting for me when I was wheeled in the room. Kev said when he walked in they were swarmed around me. I remember just being in disbelief. Was this really happening? Kev hadn't gotten a hold of my Mom yet and ended up having to call the school to get a message to her.

The nurses were prepping me for surgery and one said that there was one person a head of me and then we'd head that way. They took my blood pressure again and it was 160 over 85. FYI, my arm is still bruised from the cuff. The higher your blood pressure, the tighter the cuff constricts... Blah.

Anyway, one of the nurses said they were bumping me above everyone. Kevin kept trying to get a hold of people while they worked on me. Time went by so fast. Next thing I knew we were headed to the OR. They kept Kev in the hallway while the got me numb and relaxed. He had to stick me 3 different times in my spine to find the right place. I had a moment once I laid down that I was nauseous and then I had trouble breathing. But they adjusted the medication and in no time I couldn't feel anything.

They brought Kevin in and he took my hand. Here we go. Dr. Froeschke worked fast and at 3:19pm our angel was born. They had to get out the vacuum because he was still so high. He was 36 weeks and 5 days old st birth. Any baby born before 37 weeks is considered a premie. NICU was there in case he needed to go. Nate was labeled a "late term premie".

They took him to the warming station. He wasn't crying. They said this was typical with C-section babies because they are in shock. They go from happy warm wombs to what the heck???

After about 45 seconds we heard that sweet sound. He was crying and I started balling. I am a Mom.

Nathaniel James Lawther was born on May 16th at 3:19pm. He was 6lbs 11oz and 20 inches long.

As they called out his weight, Dr. Froeschke said, " What? Not even 7lbs?" :) We had talked every visit about how big this baby would be at full term. He was always measuring so big and a head of schedule. God knew why. God was going to bring him early and he needed to be fully developed. And he was.

No need for the NICU. They did put him in a bright orange hat to signal that he is a premie.

They gave him to Kevin and he brought him to me. Most beautiful thing I've ever seen. He had a suck blister on his left thumb for sucking it in the womb. After way too short a time they needed to take him to the Nursery. Kev went with them and got to show him off to all who were in the waiting room. They finished working on me and wheeled me back to labor and delivery. They immediately started me on a magnesium drip and placed me on "seizure watch" for 24 hours.

Our bundle of JOY!

Nate and his G-Daddy!!

Nate and the man who saved both our lives... Best Doctor in the world.. Dr. Froeschke.

Proud Daddy!!!

My family and friends that are family are amazing. I am so glad they were at the hospital and able to meet our son!! I don't remember much more of that day. The magnesium drip made me feel like I had the flu. I remember holding him for the first time. I remember they brought him in to eat and then took him back to the nursery at night. I was so dizzy. I stayed in labor and delivery over night so they could monitor me. They brought in a hospital bed for Kevin. The most amazing group of nurses and care givers. I highly recommend MCA of Arlington Women's Center.

The next day I was feeling much better. No seizures, no more magnesium drip and I got to eat. :) They moved me up stairs a little later in the day. Nate had lots of visitors... He is so loved already.

Luka and Nate's first photo...tada!

Proud Daddies! Their little boys are one day apart. Kev, Linden, Nate and Brooks... Kick'em Colts! The tradition continues...

I was having trouble breast feeding so they taught me how to pump and feed Nate with a spoon. Crazy!! Not needed now as he can take a bottle just fine, but if you ever have to feed your newborn with a spoon, I can help! :)

It's now Saturday and we have one more day in the hospital. I'm so glad because I wasn't ready to go home. Some of my out of town family was in town that weekend!!! They came by and got to meet Nate!

Nate and his SUPER cousin Zanna!! So glad the Dallas Demarest clan could come see us!!

My miracle

Sarah and Whitney. Whitney is going to be a big sister in October!

Nate and his Glammye!!

Nate and his Grandma:

They came to our room and took his newborn photos on our hospital bed. So convenient and she got some great shots. I will post them soon.

Aunt Jessi, this one's for you. :) He's inherited my excellent toe moving skills. :)

We went home on Sunday May 19th. Kev's Dad's birthday and my Gparents wedding anniversary. We could feel them around us blessing us and keeping us safe.

Thanks so much to Kristen and Josh for taking care of Murphy while we were in the hospital. It was a load off our minds to know that he was taken care of by people he loves! They brought Murph over after we got home and settled in. It was very smooth and Murph is adjusting well.

As for us... We are adjusting too. Thanks for all the prayers! We feel them. Love you all!

Let's Rewind

So last time I posted I was 30 weeks. And now... I'm a Mom. So much has happened in these last 7 weeks that I don't really know where to start.

Around 33 weeks we went to Stork Vision and got to see our angel in 3D.

Couldn't believe how beautiful he is. Couldn't wait to meet him. I didn't have to wait too much longer.

The day before I made it to 35 weeks, I lost my Gma. That is an entire post all in itself. And I will do that later. Not a day goes by that I don't miss her... But after this past week I can honestly say I know she is watching out for me. I wish she was here to hold my son. It's all she talked about when we were together and she'd put her hands on my belly. But if she can't be here, if I don't have a choice, I'm so grateful she's in heaven with Gpa and keeping her family safe on a much greater scale.

Needless to say that next week was pretty hard. Everyone was so worried I would go into labor early but I didn't. I was able to work some and even held it together long enough to speak at her funeral.

That takes us to 36 weeks. Mother's Day. We went to church. The same church we'd just celebrated my Gma's life in 2 days earlier. It was a wonderful service. The Way Band brought me to tears with the song I Can Only Imagine. I could feel Grandma around us.

During the next week, Kev and I spent our time getting things ready for Nate upstairs and down. We had gone to babies r us and buy buy baby to spend our giftcards and got pretty much all we thought we could ever need. We safe so grateful to everyone who came to our showers or sent us a gift. We weren't ready for Nate, but we were getting there.

On Monday night we went to our infant care class. Learned how to sponge bathe a doll. But it really was informative and I'm so glad we went. Especially because 48 hours later...

Wednesday night, May 15th. Our last night as a family of three. We found ourselves in the closet. Mother nature brought us a tornado and we were so lucky that it passed right over us and didn't touch down.

I started having Braxton hicks that Wednesday night. There we were in the closet and we both said to my belly, not tonight, Nate. :) they were very infrequent but were accompanied with the slightest amount of pain. Wasn't happening enough to even consider going to the hospital. Went to sleep and was able to sleep just fine.

Woke up on May 16th. Got ready for work and went to school. Little did I know, my world was about to completely change. Talk about a whirl wind.

30 weeks

This was a great week for me. It was exhausting, but being able to rest on Friday was wonderful. Kevin had to go scout in Odessa at the last minute so he hopped a plane Thursday morning and it was my first 24 hours without him this pregnant. Nate and I did Ok. And I was super busy, had to work a track meet... Ahhh the joys of being a coach & a coach's wife. :)

We had a track meet at Martin this past week. Kevin and I met on that field, in the end zone closest to school. My best friend introduced us when I was visiting the school, when I was still at Oakridge. 2 years later, on that same day, Kevin took me back to that field and gave me a promise ring. He promised to ask me to marry him someday... 14 years later... I got to show my son this place that changed my life.

Coach Wilkins was my Coach when I was at Martin. I was a football manager, in charge of the equipment, and he was the Coach in charge of us... Among all his other football duties. He now coaches at Boles and I get to see him every now and then. He's such a sweet man and I learned so much from him.

Kev had to stay overnight in Odessa because there wasn't a returning flight Thursday night after the game. His flight got in early Friday afternoon and he was home for about 2 hours before he had to walk out the door for the varsity soccer game. I slept the majority of Friday. I think that's why I feel good now.

I am 30 weeks today. I was not feeling good this morning. Exhausted, nauseous, heartburn and restless legs. Unfortunately, we didn't make it to church. I'm bummed. We were going to go to the contemporary service at New World UMC and rock out to The Way Band while our friend's little ones danced around. But I'm glad I stayed home because I feel great right now. I was able to go to lunch with my family and feel somewhat rested for the week.

I am so grateful for today and all it means. God is Big Enough and Jesus' love knows no bounds. My Mom just told me that a dear family friend passed away this week. She was a great person. She was a breast cancer survivor. She died from complications from Alzheimer's. I'm so glad she's in heaven where she is no longer in pain and her spirit is free.

Hope your Easter is full of God's love and Joy! 10 weeks to go until we get to meet our own angel.

He can't get here fast enough!

27 weeks?? Or 29?

Last night, Kevin and I finally got our son's name up on the wall! I love it so much!!!

That's right... It starts with a N!!

I'm so grateful to my hubby for doing this!! Who knew applying basically a big sticker to the wall could be so stressful.

Drum roll, please!!! our son's name is Nathaniel James! We plan to call him Nate, and we do... But I also refer to him as Nathaniel. His name means "A Gift From God"... Couldn't be more perfect.

We went to the dr today! It was a wonderful morning because we got to see Nate on the sonogram. He's so beautiful. We got to see his brain! So cool!! As they checked the rest of the organs she said he is for sure a boy. :) Everything looked really good. We still had difficulty seeing the heart because my navel was casting a shadow right over his heart. Dr. Froeschke made us an appointment for a high tech sono on April 8th. Supposed to be really clear and they will make a DVD of the sono for you. Very excited about this!! :)

He is measuring at 29 weeks. The sonogram machine says our estimated due date is May 24th. But when we talked to our doctor, we are keeping the original due date of June 9th because that was the base of estimation back in September. He says that we will have to just see when Nate decides to enter this world.

He said if he continues to grow at this rate and gets to be 9lbs or so that we need to prepare ourselves for a C-section. He is already 3lbs and 1 ounce. My Dad and brother were both about 10 lbs when they were born. I was 7 lbs 13oz and Kev was over 8 pounds. So I am 100% ok with a C-section of a 9lb baby. :) I would rather deliver normally, but I trust my doctor and god's plan and will go with it.

Here is his profile:

This photo makes me giggle. He's looking at us and covering his face with his hands. You can see his open lips and his nose. ;) we were able to watch him open and close his mouth. I want a sonogram machine in my house... I'd never leave!!!

And this is his face... Once again looking right at us. Can't get enough!

Also good news today, my BP was 102 over 70. Thrilled with that. Guess Spring Break agrees with me. :)

Did my glucose today and we will get the results in a day or two. Pretty much all I eat are sweets right now so I am praying we get the all clear.

Other than that things are good around here. :) Counting the days until we meet our son, Baby Nate!

Welp... It's a.....

So I think its time for an update. Maybe? :) Kevin and I went to our sonogram on January 15th. We took the day off so we could meet some family members for lunch and hopefully share the news! Boy or girl? We didn't care either way.

It was icy that morning and we were running late but some how managed to get to the appointment on time. Had to wait just a little bit and then they called us back.

I have had so many sonograms and the same technician has done each one of them. She's so sweet and has held my hand from the beginning... And I saw it right away! Just needed confirmation from the tech...

After our appointment we met my parents and few family members for lunch to "reveal" to them our baby's gender. We had originally planned a dinner that night for family and friends, but Kevin had a soccer game and we didn't know what time he'd be done.

We stopped by Nothing Bundt Cakes and they put together a gender reveal cake. It was so cute.

When we got to the restaurant, we hid the cake and let everyone go around the table and share their guesses... I think it was about 50/50.

And then...

It's a BOY!!! My cousin took a video but I'm not sure how to post it.

We are so excited! Kevin took video while the sono tech checked all his organs and everything looks great! We saw his blood moving through his veins, his brain, his spine... It was surreal.

I'm 25 weeks now and he is squirming and kicking away. It's the weirdest, most wonderful feeling. He really likes music and when a song has a good drum beat he will kick on beat. No like a steady beat, but when he does kick it'll be right in sync with the music.

I was at a training and they played "Let's get it started" and that was the first time I noticed it. I told Kevin and he was so disappointed. :) Kevin said, "Not the Black Eyed Peas!" He has since played our son lots of different types of music. He likes Texas Country, Michael Jackson, and *Nsync. He did not kick to 98 degrees.

Maybe we have a little drummer on our hands.

The nursery is coming along.. Kevin wanted to get the big stuff done on our winter break. He worked really hard.

We started out by picking the little girl and boy bedding before we knew what we were having. We wanted a paint color that was gender neutral. These were our bedding options and the paint color we chose:

After installing a ceiling fan, Kevin got to work on painting. I tried to help but after 5 minutes in a mask I couldn't handle the fumes.

Our boy bedding is called the Bow Wow Buddies. Kevin picked it out and that may be my favorite part.

My parents gave us a glider for Christmas. We bought the crib on sale, which was awesome.Then we went to Ikea with some friends of ours to get the other furniture. We went with dark wood because its gender neutral and will still work if we get to have a baby #2 and the baby is a girl.

So far, so good! :)

We are so excited! We are a little over 100 days until our due date!!! Can't wait to meet our son!

Baby boy or girl??

I am 19 weeks!! We have our Organ sonogram tomorrow and assuming our little one is not too shy, we'll find out if Junebug is a boy or girl!!
We are so excited!!!
So far... My pregnancy has been pretty smooth. Minus the spotting in the beginning. The nausea is manageable. Cravings not too crazy... And then my nose decided I shouldn't breathe through it anymore. This was a side effect I wasn't prepared for. But I am trying everything to manage it. We bought a humidifier. We needed one for the baby's room anyway. It really helped. Tonight I'm trying the nasal spray and breathe right strips as well. Going to talk to the doctor about what meds I can take at our appointment tomorrow. I need them like woah.
But I'd rather be pregnant with a stuffy nose and drainage, then not pregnant at all! :)

Giving it to God

Today was a very special day. Today, my nephew Luka was baptized into the Methodist church. Some of my family gathered today at First United Methodist Church of Mansfield to bare witness to this glorious event.

It went so smoothly. Luka slept through the whole thing. His parents beamed at the alter as he was welcomed into the Christian faith. Ember looked beautiful with her hubby and Luka's god parents at her side. It was a day of rejoicing.

It was also wonderful to be at church. I have been an absentee attendee as of late to put it mildly. Life gets so busy that it's easy to make excuses on Sunday mornings to stay home snuggled in bed, or getting chores done.

To be honest, once again, this morning I didn't really want to leave the house. But I am so glad I did.

There is a calming effect that comes over me as a large room of people
pray together. The music was beautiful and the sermon was easy to follow and entertaining... But the prayers. They almost brought me to tears.

I've been so scared of losing this baby. So fearful of something I have no control over. And today while we prayed that god would take away our fears and help us to see that his healing hands are in all we do... I started to believe. I started to let go.

Doesn't mean I won't be devastated. It only means that I understand that God's plan for my life may not always line up with my wants. But I believe in his plan for me.

Right now I pledge to give my fear and worry... My constant pessimistic attitude that something is going to go wrong... I give it all to him. I replace it with his love and the understanding that above all, he loves me unconditionally and will provide what I need.

If you are struggling with something... I hope this motivates you to do the same. I'll be here to support you and pray for you... Always.

God Is Big Enough.

Merry Christmas!

I'm a believer

Before I dive into this story let me start by telling you that we have been trying to get pregnant since June 2010. We tried on our own and were successful in Dec. 2010. It only last a few weeks and then the baby was gone. In April of 2010 we were referred to a fertility specialist named Dr. Le of Advanced Reproductive Care. We met with him and he said it sounded like my progesterone levels are off and therefor I don't ovulate every month. Maybe 2 or 3 times a year. Great!

So we set up a game plan.
I would go to their office on the 2nd or 3rd day of my cycle and do an ultrasound to make sure my lining shed and my ovaries looked good. Then I would take Clomid for 5 days. I would go back for another ultra sound on day 12 to see if the Clomid worked and to see if I had any mature follicles. If I did then they would give me a shot to ovulate. All that just to get my body to do what most women do naturally. Then on day 20 I would go get blood work done to check my progesterone level to see if the shot worked and I ovulated.

So, we tried that in June. Didn't work. We were in Hawaii when it was time for round two so we had to skip that month. Then we tried again in August. Not smart. I was stressed to the max and the meds weren't working. They upped my dosage of Clomid to the most possible but it still didn't work that month. The shot didn't even make me ovluate. What a waste.

We took a break until after football season and gave it another go in Dec 2011. This is when they decided I need more stimulant to mature my follicles. So Clomid every day for 5 days and 4 shots of Menapure every other day. It was really exciting to go in for that 12 day ultrasound and see the mature follicles! The most I ever had was in February 2011 and it was 2 in each ovary. Dr. Le said that this round I should be prepared because their was a chance for multiples.

So they gave me my shot. Different brand that actually did make me ovulate.
I got my blood work done and my progesterone was 25! It's never been that high! Really good sign. So good they told me I didn't have to take my daily progesterone pill!

Kevin and I went to Florida for Spring Break and I just knew I was pregnant. I was supposed to wait until 2 weeks after my shot and I had waited 10 days. Surely that was long enough. And it was!! Little plus sign in Jordan's bathroom. My cousin Ember was also pregnant. She just had her precious little boy in October! I just knew it was meant to be.

We flew home the next day and I took a blood test. HCG was 33. They said that was ok because it was so early, but my progesterone had dropped to a 2. They told me to start taking my progesterone pills again.

A few days a bliss. No pain, cramping or bleeding. And then.. I started my cycle. I was devastated! They kept making me go back for blood tests to make sure the HCG level was dropping. I understand why but it was so painful... To get updates about how the number was going down and not up.

So we took a break. If you haven't experienced infertility you can't understand what it can do to a marriage. I think any less committed couple wouldn't have made it through. "It took it's toll" is a complete understatement. So during our break we decided to work on us. I didn't realize how broken we were until we stopped focusing on a baby and started focusing on one another.

We decided in July we would wait until after football season to go another round with treatments. And then we thought... why not? And we'd give it one try and see what happens. So we went in August... pills, ultrasounds, shots... Stress of the new school year. Nope....

So we were done. We decided to take a good long break. Basketball season is going to be really tough for me with the musical at the same time so I decided we'd wait until March of 2013. And in the meantime look into adoption. We are ready to be parents and don't really care how our baby comes to us.

So we had a plan. Enjoy each other. Get back to what made us, us.

Well.. You what they say, if you want to make god smile... Tell him your plans.

On October 3rd one of my friends at work told me that one of her family members just had a baby and is giving it up for adoption. It's 2 weeks old and needs a home. And I thought, that's it!! That's our baby! Went home and talked to Kevin about it and he said as much as he wanted to be a Dad, 12 hours was too soon. He needed more time. To be honest, I did too. Luckily as Kevin and I talked about it the baby was placed in a good home. But it really made us want to step up the adoption game.

On October 4th, my same friend said she had another cousin who just found out she was pregnant and would be giving the baby up for adoption. And again I thought. Thank you god!! 9 months was all anybody ever got to prepare. Perfect.

Later in the morning I was walking with a different coworker and she said to me, "I just have to ask you, are you with child?" I said, "What? No. Not possible, why?" She said,"Well, you are glowing." I said, "Thank you, but I think it's my make up."

I went back to my classroom, sat on my desk and thought for a minute. Could I be pregnant? I started doing some math and realized I was 5 days late. I am never late. Because of my progesterone problem, my cycle comes early if anything.

In the back of my mind I was hopeful. But the majority of my brain had the earlier mentality... Not possible.

We weren't tying. I wasn't counting days, taking my temperature, taking my progesterone, or shots or pills... It was football season!

Even with all the no way thoughts.. I still bought a pregnancy test. I took it at 4pm in the afternoon. I decided if I was 5 days late, I didn't have to wait until the morning... it should show up. And it was going to be negative anyway!

Sometimes it's great to be wrong.

I was afraid to look but I did anyway and a beautiful Plus sign was there.

After I stopped running around in circles of disbelief I called my doctor. They wanted me to get blood work done the next day and to wait to take my progesterone. Um no... Been there and I am not waiting. They said it was just to get an accurate reading of my progesterone level. I said I am going to take progesterone either way so I'm taking one tonight and y'all can just note that on the results. To be honest I had already taken it. :) my levels came back 1008 HCG and progesterone at an 8. See!!!! Even with the pill it's still low! They like it to be at least 12.

Went back two days later and I was scared that because my number was so high that it wouldn't double like it was supposed to. Worried about nothing. It was 3874 HCG.

Ohmigoodness!! I'm going to have a baby!

And then I started spotting. Are you kidding me!? I called my dr and he said that it could mean two things:

1. This is just how my body handles pregnancy.

2. It could be multiples. We'll be able to tell at the sonogram when we hear the heartbeats! Heartbeats!?!?

But, I'm losing the baby was not an option that they said. So that's good news.

Multiples?! I could see the plus side of that! It was hard enough to get pregnant but now I get to have 2 and be done. I couldn't wrap my head around more than two. I have enough arms for two. But I didn't want to carry multiples. I wanted one strong, healthy baby as I knew my pregnancy was high risk as it was.

I spotted for 2 weeks. And then the day before my first sonogram... The day I became 7 weeks it stopped. And we got to hear our baby's heart beat for the first time! Kevin and I both asked when he pointed to the baby on the screen. The dr said, "there's your baby" and we said, "one baby?" And he said yes. :)

Due date is June 9, 2013!!

One perfect angel growing and growing. So I am so grateful for my co-worker. Had she not said something I don't know what would have happened.

Had a sonogram at 8 1/2 weeks... The Junebug was wiggling away!

It's taken me almost 2 months to believe that this is real. In a little over 6 months, I am going to be a Mom. I'm going to have a child. Not only that, my best friend is having a baby due a week after me. I have a dear friend due the week before me and a close family member due a week after me.
I'm scared to death that I am going to lose this baby. Because that's what my body does. That's all I know! And now I have my nephew Luka who will be just 7 months older than my child and 3 other babies that will be so close in age! How fun to raise over children together!! It's too good to be true. But it is true. And I will hold on to hope for as long as I can!

Here's our little Junebug at 12 weeks! Perfect little angel!